Hi Bonnie Schuster,

I used to have recurring dreams about my mother being alive when she should have been dead from metastasized colon cancer and she’d show up alive, or her body would be dead, in a closet or she’d be in a hospital, supposed to be dying and yet she lived.  That dream changed from being left abandoned by my parents, and I was left alone, no medication, no food, nowhere to go, not knowing what to do or how to do it;  yet another was how to find my way home and only certain landmarks would be vague enough in my memory to know where I was walking to go to.  The recurring dreams of being abandoned problem originates from after my mother died in 1979 and our family of four, my father and the three of us adult children left, were literally on our own.  My brother and father had major mental health issues plus emotional and psychological issues, bi polar, delusional and psychotic and my latent schizophrenic who later became paranoid. My mother was a chronic worrier (anxiety).  So we were literally all on our own trying to find our own way in life and I believe that’s why I personally have recurring dreams of being abandoned or having nowhere to go.

My sister wakes up from "night terrors" having lived an horrendous life before she met my brother-in-law and when I have intense dreams, I wake up feeling horrible tension in my stomach and sometimes, can’t eat for hours until the tension passes.  She wakes up often having panic attacks or major anxiety attacks.