I feel trapped by time, never enough of it.  I multi-task EVERYTHING, from projects, to family, to home….but never for myself…that I just try to work in where I can, which I know isn’t the best decision.  Time seems to rob me of making good decisions, makes me quick to chose and then deal with the fall out later. I feel like I prioritize well, but just as I catch up, more and more responsiblities fall on me.  I think I need to learn the dreaded 2 letter N word…NO!

I can relate to Mary, in that I feel trapped by illness, mine or others.  Part of it is not allowing myself to be seen as weak and fall apart like everyone else, but I can’t.  I must be strong for everybody.  As I dealt with my husbands illness, I walked around with a smile plastered on my face.  I even took that time to pursue my masters degree.  Anything to look "normal" all the while wanting to run around screaming and pulling my hair out.  That is a feeling of being trapped in a box. 

i understand about illnesses. i feel trapped by my own illnesses. to list them all would take a whole paragraph so i will not bore you with that. but needless to stay i get trapped by not being able to go out and do the things i want to do. i cannot be around anybody sick, i cannot stand long periods of time, i cannot be out in the son with my grandson, i cannot dance all night and party anymore (not that i ever really did those last two things all night, BUT if i wanted to …). right now i’m very worried about all the germs out there b/c of my compromised immune system. so i feel like i’m trapped in a box b/c every little germ coming my way stops to say hi at least once. annoying if nothing else. i still have to go out and i still have to deal with ppl. but it’s not easy.