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Think Up | 06/03/2008 12:00 am

Ashley Judd's Rwanda Diaries Part One: After Doubt and Delay, Ashley Arrives in Africa

Ashley Judd
I felt guided and led the whole time, in fact. I had some choices about hotel (airport or city center?) and did not struggle with the decision. Some key phrases from my daily reading came true: When in doubt, we ask for inspiration or a decision. We don’t struggle. We relax and take it easy. Except for complaining to my husband about the cost of living in Brussels, which I did more to keep up my reputation for being “tighter than two coats of paint,” it was all emotionally effortless. The meeting I found was fantastic and heartening. In my room, I had a chance to read the many kind e-mails I had received last week for my birthday. I caught up on voicemail. I finished my book.

Today’s travel has gone off as planned and, as I write, I am watching the African sun begin to set, casting shades of oranges so associated with this continent.

Africa! How is this possible? How did I get here? Where does this life come from — from my 40th birthday in the Scottish Highlands with dear friends, roaring with laughter and running a sack race on the front lawn of a castle, to my first appointment in Rwanda this evening with a woman senator and Zainab Salbi, the founder of Women for Women International, whose amazing book, Between Two Worlds, I finished last night? I called someone back from the Rodham-Clinton campaign last night and when the president heard it was me on the line, he grabbed the phone for a wee chat. That is sort of nerve-racking, to have him spontaneously get on the phone like that. I have to laugh at my life, give thanks, laugh, give thanks.

The African sun is setting with its patented hues of orange and red. The sun looks like this from nowhere else on earth. I can see the thousand hills of Rwanda undulate before me, terraced and graced with lakes. I am grateful to be emotionally sober. My last time to this continent, the original home of us all, I was so overwhelmed with emotion as to be nearly distraught. Everything, but everything, made me cry! My first African tree! My first African bird! My first African friend! I was returning to my cradle and had the heightened emotionality of a seeker’s first pilgrimage. I am far from casual about this journey — far from it. I am simply … simpler. My gratitude, awe, respect and even my enthusiasm are more subtle.

There is tough work to be done. Tomorrow I begin the Genocide Memorial and a talk afterwards about the progress Rwanda has made since that insanity. I will meet our host country staff (PSI Rwanda) and begin to learn more about the burden of poor health that continues to unnecessarily cost Rwandans their children and their own lives and stifle their economy and progress. Rwanda is the most densely populated African country, and malaria, lack of safe water (only 2.5 percent of Rwandans have piped water), the great need for family planning, STIs, HIV and other preventable diseases and issues keep the entire population subsisting on less than a dollar a day. I will see our programs in action, celebrate what works and help carry the message of prevention and effective grassroots programs to those who can fund them and help change attitudes and policies for the better.

Gender-based violence will be a core theme of this trip. I have already abdicated my day to see the Silverback Gorillas in order to go to Goma, a city in the Democratic Republic of Congo accessible more safely from Rwanda (Dario is not amused but Papa Jack is here and has done his work. We’ll be okay; it’s said to be more stable now, with a very large UN presence, too). The refuge camps are filled with masses of women — victims of rape. The gorillas, as much as I love them, can wait.

I am glad to be here, glad to learn, glad to serve and am more than a little perplexed as to why me.

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phyllis Doyle Pepe
What a courageous woman. I have such admiration for her. I am very interested to learn what she learns so I thank you Wows for letting us peek into the diaries.
By phyllis Doyle Pepe on 06/03/2008 8:10 am
Kate Cassidy
Why me”? you ask, Ashley. Because you are bright, intelligent, and sensitive to the needs and feelings of others and you have the courage to “do it”. I am sure your sharing of your diaries will intice others to move foreward as well. My warmest thoughts are with you in your ventures. Learn, absorb and continue to share. Thank you!
By Kate Cassidy on 06/03/2008 8:20 am
T S
I applaud Ashley and so look forward to finding out what she discovers and learns.
By T S on 06/03/2008 9:34 am
To the beach ~~~
Beautiful photos of a haunted nation, with their wonderful humanist President and First Lady Kagame working transform things; and the spirit of Audrey Hepburn living on in Ashley Judd. Recognizing the long list of challenges, especially curbing population growth, am wondering if there has or will be a kind of microenterprise conference? It seems that since Rwanda’s population isn’t much larger than NYC’s and with US colleges graduating a generation of social entrepreneurs, plus our 73 million Baby Boomers retiring and many wanting to do purposeful work, to have a conference of US and European women’s business owners who retail handicrafts like, http://www.globalgirlfriend.com/gifts/site.do?siteId=344 women’s intiative groups that are a model of starting micro-enterprise businesses like, http://www.womensinitiative.org/index.htm and social entrepreneur experts like Muhammad Yunus, founder of Grameen Bank, Green representatives like Bioneer/Apollo Alliance, and a video model like Sarah McLachlan’s http://www.worldonfire.ca/ plus starting a Facebook activism group—could be a grassroots effort that could accomplish some things fast. Was amazed at all that just $150K accomplished from ‘World on Fire.’ And Facebook activism groups have been very effective, those combined have that viral effect that can grow. With the world bending to organic cotton (so crucial) and many non-sweat shop producers in LA etc…and most of Rwanda being agricultural; is there something like a large-scale hydroponic method to grow cotton, instead of expansion of lifestock which uses up the limited resources and erodes more soil—significant problems. I’m a big tea drinker and Rwanda’s a tea producer… but have never seen their product. Need a great catchy label….and activist retailers like Whole Foods. Also wonder about eco-tourism in the Great Lakes area. William Newsom has been doing those lowscape hotels in Africa and Kuki Gallman with her outstanding conservancy foundation and wealth of knowledge in Africa: http://www.gallmannkenya.org/kuki.php I know the UN has it’s great development programs….but as JFK energized the Peace Corps with such effect (I’ve had San Francisco taxi drivers from Ethiopia, etc say they never forget the Peace Corps workers) Corps Rwanda? Solar, lowscape academies with donated computers and links to open university certificate programs, ie does US Davis have a certificate program in agriculture? For anyone interested here’s a quick factbook on the nation: https://www.cia.gov/library/publications/the-world-factbook/geos/rw.html So much to tackle and just the right person to spearhead attention. Years ago had lunch with Ashley’s can-do godmother in her charming Pacific Heights home…what a family (and extended family) of accomplishment oriented, inspiring women. Look forward to more diaries—enriching terrific idea.
By To the beach ~~~ on 06/03/2008 1:01 pm
To the beach ~~~
Ms Judd—It just occurred to me that Jackie Kennedy, instead of ordering Baccarat crystal for the White House, ordered inexpensive wine glasses that she found beautifully styled from West Virginia, after she was so shocked by the poverty she saw there during her campaign visits. She knew by buying well styled inexpensive glasses that were used even for State dinners, that the public would buy them too and help the people of West Virginia. Ashley Judd Rwanda tea? I’d buy it by the boatload. Just like Paul Newman products….it doesn’t just help good causes it shifts capital to what changes the world. Oh, and Jackie said she’d like to break all the glasses every day so the WH would need to keep buying more. Thank you again.
By To the beach ~~~ on 06/03/2008 1:58 pm
Maurine H
Ashley Judd is one of those women we are so blessed to have as examples of how to be in the world. I have been following her odyssey for some time, and I think she is a remarkable way-shower, someone who cares so much about the plight of Rwandans that she puts herself out there, doing the work, accepting the associated emotional toll. She is one of the young women I admire most in the world. Thanks to you and to Ashley for sharing her diaries with us.
By Maurine H on 06/03/2008 1:03 pm
Kathrine Gluvna
French Heart, Thank you for the information and the websites. What an amazing women Ashley is. Thank you WOW for sharing her diary.
By Kathrine Gluvna on 06/03/2008 1:22 pm
Emcye Edwards
An informative article regarding the Fellowship work Ashley is doing and it’s connections to Candidate Clinton. http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200611/green-hillary
By Emcye Edwards on 06/03/2008 3:18 pm
Mugsy Peabody
Drew, try to get with the program, okay? Particularly inappropriate where she is speaking of “refuge camps … filled with masses of women — victims of rape.” Ms. Ashley, it is you because of every step you have taken before in this life, all of it has lead you to this point. Like so many, I am following your journey with interest, and sending my good thoughts with you for your success in making a positive impact on a desperate situation. You will grow into the person you need to be to do this work. Just one day one step one breath at a time. To the light, MP
By Mugsy Peabody on 06/03/2008 11:17 pm
Lorraine Bates
Wonderful read - I look forward to the rest, and to learn vicariously through you.
By Lorraine Bates on 06/05/2008 4:14 pm
Bonnie Oliver
I, too, look forward to the rest of the diaries. The USA government has spent millions in Africa to help with the prevention and care of AIDS patients. Many countries are helping but here the USA has taken a lead role. President Bush has made this effort one of the cornerstones of his administration and, from what I understand, our help is making a difference. Bill and Melinda Gates are tackling the problem in India with millions from their own organization. Some of the nightmare scenarios about the methods used by the uneducated men to rid themselves of AIDS is heart wrenching. I hope Ashley will be able to withstand some of the horrors she will see on this trip. It will not be a vacation by any stretch of the imagination.
By Bonnie Oliver on 06/05/2008 11:12 pm
Adla Coure
Thank you for sharing these entries. They are poignant and capture the true tragedy that befalls much of the world. Giving a voice to those without a voice is powerful. Thank you!
By Adla Coure on 06/09/2008 3:01 am
Teresa Proctor
Ashley, thank you so much for speak your truth. We need every woman on this planet to speak their truth from a place of heart in order to restore the balance. This is exactly what you have done, in my opinion, by sharing your diary with all of us. Please keep up the great work, you are raising others up by your presents and gifts. Thank you again.
By Teresa Proctor on 06/09/2008 11:41 am
mary lou s
ashley, thank you for doing this work. i hope your heart can stand up to the assaults it sees happening so that you can work on prevention.
By mary lou s on 06/09/2008 3:05 pm