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Cynthia McFadden | 06/04/2008 11:36 am

Hillary Clinton Exhausted and in Mourning

Editor’s Note: A report from our newest wOwer (soon to be officially announced) from the field.

He did it. He won. Barack Obama hit the magic number and Hillary Clinton did not — can not — now. But so far she hasn’t been able to bring herself to say so. One can only imagine what it feels like to have worked this hard for this long and to come to the end; to be surrounded by the faithful who have pinned their hopes and dreams on you — contributing time, money and heart to make it happen and then, gone. I know a lot of the people in the center of Clinton’s historic run for the White House and, this morning, they sound dazed. Then there are the 17 to 18 million people (depends on whether and how you count Florida and Michigan voters) who went to the polls and said they wanted her to be the next president of these United States.

Insiders say that Clinton herself is both exhausted and uncertain how she wants to proceed. She has told some close to her that the pressure on her is intense and that she has "earned" a moment of reflection before deciding whether to quit the race and how. Those arguing that she should stay in the race seem to have the slimmest of points this morning. Does challenging the way the Michigan delegation was seated really seem to have any legs at this point? I don’t think so. The party is moving on with Obama to the general election. In the hours to come — I would argue by Friday at the latest — she will have no choice but to congratulate him as the winner or seem terribly ungracious and divisive.

So why didn’t she do it last night? She probably should have. But she is exhausted. She is in mourning. She doesn’t want to make a mistake and there is much to consider. Not the least of which is money. Clinton has loaned her campaign $11.4 million dollars. No doubt she’d like to see some of that money again. What is the party — what is Obama willing to do to help her with this? It seems Obama is willing to help her on this front. He has asked her to meet with him. But so far she seems reluctant. They most likely saw each other today when both addressed AIPAC in Washington. But don’t look for any announcement from that.

Perhaps it is the other looming question she needs more time to consider: Does she want to be Obama’s vice president? Signals on this score are mixed. Many believe the duo would be better equipped to beat McCain in the fall, but most political analysts say nobody ever won (or lost) the presidency over his pick of vice president. And that is probably true. From Obama’s point of view there is also the "Bill" factor. It is one thing to have Hillary Clinton as your V.P. It is another to have a former president as her spouse. As Princess Diana once famously said about her marriage, "There were three of us in this marriage and it was rather crowded in there." You get the point.

Over the past year and a half I have interviewed Hillary Clinton five times, in depth, on the campaign trail — first in September of 2006 as she campaigned for re-election to her Senate seat and then from Iowa, Little Rock, Ohio and last month in Indiana.

Our conversations have been wide-ranging and extensive. And during the course of this time I feel I have had a chance to see Hillary Clinton in a unique way — in various situations, including alone with the cameras off. It gave me a more complex portrait of her, a woman who is disciplined, vulnerable, suspicious, passionate, reflective, funny and wise; someone you’d like to be able to take your shoes off with and have a nice long chat.

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Meg Robinson
I hope that Hillary does not release her delegates. This gives her some power, especially after Mr. Newbie screws up.
By Meg Robinson on 06/05/2008 11:24 am
Buh- Bye
I got an email from Hillary’s camp this morning saying she is throwing her support behind Mr. Newbie because she “said she would.” :( SADNESS!
By Buh- Bye on 06/05/2008 11:57 am
Cynthia Schultz
Politics is like high school, the corporate world and quite possibly marriage - how you manage the relationships impacts how far you get, how well you’re known and how long you last. You say plenty of stupid things in each scenario, you wish you could take them back - but hey it’s all character building and we grow from it. I am really impressed with Hillary, would have loved to see a woman as president and will hope for that in the future. Now, I’ll support the person who will represent me as closely as I can hope for. It turns out, that will be Barack. The media (liberal or conservative) does play a role of influencer whether we decide to believe it or not. It’s up to us to filter what facts we can. But maybe spending some time to research and read would help broaden the sound-bites into substance for some of us. When I’m in a great dialogue like this one and we (posters) get fired up and shoot at one another, it diminishes what we might be able to do with this community. Online writing is ripe with emotion you just can’t digest, so check your replies against being overly judgmental. Basically, accountability is what we all need to look for. Barack’s experience concerns me. But I’ve walked into jobs knowing full well I better hit the ground running and get the knowledge fast. It’s really part of most high responsibility jobs. George was never flexible enough to realize it but did play the pied piper really well. (ok, that was my dig - we don’t deserve to be led so poorly). So here comes November everyone. Are you going to complain or do something?
By Cynthia Schultz on 06/05/2008 1:51 pm
Linda Myers
Maybe what Hillary needs to be asking herself is “I have the support of seventeen million people in this country, how can I utilitze that support outside of the white house to help our country at this time?” Taking up a bigger cause that maybe she would have not considered. She has the strength to do great things, still as a leader, if not as president. Linda
By Linda Myers on 06/05/2008 3:03 pm
Linda Coughlin
Bravo!!!! LC
By Linda Coughlin on 06/06/2008 5:14 pm
Elyse Beaudaux
Having read Cynthia’s kind assessment of Hillary Clinton the candidate, many of the posts remind me of the separation anxiety that often accompanies a divorce. Where many of Hillary’s supporters could see it coming after North Carolina they and the campaign reminded many of a partner [usually the wife] trying to hold back the day when they receive the papers. Fair or not - what divorce feels fair - Some react in rage, others cry, some blame, some want a vindication of the injustices they experienced often through other concessions - and then some pick up the task of creating a new life, after stepping through the stages of grief, they do the work to gain emotional and spiritual closure. My hope is those who were so wedded to Hillary’s campaign are simply going through the angry stage of Grief and in time they can gain closure.
By Elyse Beaudaux on 06/05/2008 3:07 pm
mitzi morris
A very good article and take on HRC. She lost for all the reasons mentioned including an inability to collect money on the internet like the Obama rolodex, grass roots establishment of caucus organizations,and volunteer bloggers all set to go negative on HRC. But the press was vicious and prejudiced to an extreme, and it has become obvious that sexism is ok as an establishment game, but any critique of Obama the Golden One was racism. This alone did not cause Hillary to lose, but it helped and the power politics of the Democratic Party leaders clearly backed Obama as his ability to bring in new young voters was impressive and meaningful to them. And their terror after Iowa was palpable re: being threatened by a walkout of their black voter base as controlled by the black caucus in the party. The fix was in. The pressure within the party to support Obama [Kennedy, et al], was obvious. And while I am a Clinton supporter, Obama ran a first rate well concieved campaign that reflects the current mood for change and appeals to young voters. He will have to use more than great oratory, reachout to women, and focus on the issues with specificity. He must be very clear about what and how he’s going to do what and how. Generalities and adoring crowds will not be enough.
By mitzi morris on 06/05/2008 5:16 pm
J B
I am so excited to Cynthia McFadden on the WOW website. How fabulous!
By J B on 06/05/2008 5:57 pm
christina haskin
Obama is so popular because his core motivation is to choose love over hate and hope over fear. Clinton tended to choose hate over love and fear over hope (even too the point making cynical remarks about the foolishness of hope). When I really listen to Obama’s most inspired and heartfelt speeches, I walk away with a wonderful feeling because, I believe,he connects with the highest instincts in our human nature. This is new and refreshing because whether its prescription drug advertising or news reports capitalizing on fear it is very easy to feel sick tired and defeated. As a country we now have a tarnished image around the world, lots of things are crumbling (schools, bridges, health care), our nation has resorted to torture tactics and all this is quiet disheartening. To have a candidate who has the courage to truly believe we can do better is very healing for everyone in the nation, even for those who would never vote for him because his message changes the context of the way we look at ourselves and the world. This new view leaves room for hope and where there is hope there is energy and where there is enery there is action. Obama inspires the hidden hope in the electorate, the one taht has been put away in a closet in our hearts. Each American has different hopes and what is beautiful about Obama is he encourages you to have your own vision and to dust off your own dreams. His spirit wants to revitallize Americans to feel powerful and participatory, not to be victums but to be creators of the future. In his campaign he welcomes people’s creative ideas and acknowledges individuals for their contributions. People are not just exicted about Obama they are excited about themselves. They see that they don’t have to be powerless, hopeless and cynical they can be building blocks on the road to changing the world and finding positive and exciting solutions to the very large problems we now face. Obama’s ability to unify people is so important to solve world problems. What the world needs now is love not hate and hope not fear.
By christina haskin on 06/06/2008 7:49 am
~ countrywoman ~
In response to christina haskin - 6/6/2008 7:49 AM Just wanted to add my voice to yours, and to thank you for this post.
By ~ countrywoman ~ on 06/06/2008 3:07 pm
Tee Zee
Welcome Cynthia! I have always found your reporting to be insightful. Another great addition would be Rachel Maddow.
By Tee Zee on 06/07/2008 10:21 am
Dona Howlett
It’s been interesting today…… In reading all the comments how all the Wow ladies who have been so nice to each other in the past few weeks are at odds end now…….I love the debate, lets stay friends and work toward what is best for our Country.
By Dona Howlett on 06/07/2008 11:11 am
Candle Light
I was a huge Hillary Clinton fan in the beginning, but had not decided how I would vote. As time went on, though, I think she did herself in. Cynthia’s comment that “as she lost her front-runner status, she dug down deep and forced herself to be more open, more human, more vulnerable in public”… to me this was part of the problem. It smacks of dishonesty. And begging. If she ‘changed’ to her true self, then what had we seen before? And Hillary managed to focus too much energy on Obama instead of focusing on herself and how she would facilitate change for the great people of the USofA. Energy flows where attention goes.
By Candle Light on 06/07/2008 12:10 pm
Candle Light
I am truly at a loss and would love to read an explanation of how (why, even) ‘the party’ or Obama can negotiate with Hillary about repayment of her loan!? To me, it seems dishonest of the Democratic Party to do so without having given a like dollar amount to the Obama or Edwards campaigns. As for Obama—his supporters were not Clinton supporters and that’s exactly what got her into this mess. So is there the possibility of Obama-supporter dollars now going to Clinton? Not to mention the whisperings that a case could be made that some if not all of the funds (“community property”) were tied to non-U.S. sources, making them illegal to her campaign and just as illegal that she is reimbursed, no? This is just so absurd. If I have $1 to give my campaign, you can bet it was not my last living, breathing, I’ll-be-out-on-the-street-tomorrow $1. Sure she thought it was an investment in what was to come. She gambled, she lost. I hope the check stays home, and the big-girl panties get forwarded to her instead.
By Candle Light on 06/07/2008 12:40 pm
Shooz
Let’s think about this. Not everyone subscribes to Clinton-mania. Lots of folks voted what they felt. I’m female. White. College educated. No longer young. Independent, possibly learning to liberal. My vote for Obama reflects ONLY MY OWN THINKING.
By Shooz on 06/09/2008 6:30 pm