Joan Juliet Buck | 10/06/2008 12:00 am
Joan Juliet Buck: Tearing off the Veil of Childhood
Mr. Ford taught English at the French Lycée in London.
He had a long brown beard, he was probably in his 30s and he rode a wheelchair.
I never knew his first name. I never knew why he was in a wheelchair.
He started teaching me in the French section, where English was an accessory, through to the English section for University entrance, when it was the core of everything. He brought me from 13 to 17.
He was a secret Jungian, I think. He made us read Laurens Van Der Post’s Venture to the Interior.
He made us read Christopher Isherwood’s Mr. Norris Changes Trains. As it was a French school, we got the bit about communism, but were a little baffled by the masochism.
He made us read Orwell’s Homage to Catalonia,, Down and Out in Paris and London and 1984. We were sobered.
He made us read Huxley’s Brave New World. I decided I’d be a Freemartin when I grew up, and never reproduce.
He made us read Evelyn Waugh’s A Handful of Dust. I’ve been depressed since the day I finished it.
For fun, he assigned Stoppard’s Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead. It opens with them flipping a coin; Rosencrantz bets "heads," and the coin comes up "heads" 92 times. This opened me to the possibility that impossible things could happen — not fabulous fairytale happy impossible things, but ominously illogical sequences of events.
Mr. Ford tore off the veils of childhood for me.
He made us write poems. I spun an ode that began "rolling hillocks of grey grass followed each other like waves in a limestone sea."
In the margin, Mr. Ford wrote, "There is a poem somewhere in this."
Because I trusted him, this seemed a compliment.
Which means he gave me examples of sublime darkness, but also gave me hope.

























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