Oh please God, don’t let me finish tomorrow with that “That feeling of uncomprehending helplessness.” I couldn’t stand it. If Obama loses, I’m going back to China.

I remember that feeling so well. Volunteered 18 hr days for Kerry. It was a beautiful day in California and walked several miles to vote for the first time on an electronic machine just to enjoy the elated feeling of having worked so hard, and the certainty that Bush would be ousted. Then watching the returns that night and watching that ‘certainty’ be quickly crushed. I couldn’t believe what I was witnessing. The next morning I had surgery scheduled at Stanford and everyone in pre-op was talking about it in a state of disbelief. It was a body blow, one of the most depressing times in my life. I stayed in bed for a day after the surgery with a bag of chocolate chip cookies.

It was awful in 2004. And I didn’t even work all that hard. Kerry wasn’t the candidate Obama is. And I think we should look ahead, with hope. Things don’t always have to be the way they’ve always been. That’s the kind of thinking that has taken Obama this far. Let’s not start looking back now.

I’m not convinced that Bush won legally or ethically in 2000 or 2004 and I certainly will question the outcome if Obama doesn’t win this election.