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Interactive Fiction | 06/26/2008 12:00 am

Eunice's Period. Stopped, by Sheila Nevins

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An interactive fiction about menses and its merits

Eunice remembered the day she got her
Period.
Yippee. Cause
She was late and nearly
Thirteen.
Some friends would blush about it all
But on her red-banner day,
Eunice brazenly entered Murphy’s Pharmacy.
"A box of Kotex," she said, loudly — proudly,
"And a belt with pins for sanitation napkins."
"Congratulations, Eunice," said Mr. Murphy.
For in the small town in which she
Lived
Eunice’s mother, Agnes McAdams, had clearly shared
This awaited late-arrival with
Mrs. Alice Murphy who had shared it with Mr. Douglas Murphy,
Her balding kindly pharmacist husband of some
Forty years.
Doc Murphy knew what ailed everyone in town
From prescriptions, gossip and his own homespun advice.

Time would pass
Without asking and
Some 40 years later when
The Murphy’s were long gone and the lone pharmacy dissolved into a chain of cold
Chemists, Eunice’s mother,
Agnes McAdams, died quickly — cancer
And Eunice’s period stopped just as abruptly.
It stopped flowing through her.

(Eunice would longingly look at the Tampax box
Knowing that of the 36 she bought on sale
Some 34 would now go to waste.
But for nostalgia’s sake
She held on to them
For her daughters, a visitor, but never for herself
Again.)

And she questioned with this sudden stoppage
Was she useful to the Universe —
Without the hot-blooded reminder of
Fecundity? She wondered
Did this cessation equate with purpose?
Would she ever again feel the urge to be close to a man?
Would her recent divorce and celibacy in menses
Cause the ebb of her physical longing?

Yet oddly
As the months would pass inevitably
She recovered heroically as in the days of "Kotex
Please." And a new life force
Flowed into her.
Sometimes hot, sometimes erotic, sometimes sweaty with anxiety
She would grow to treasure the beat of her new
Being.
For she was equal now in Woman Power
To Man Power
She would no longer anticipate the dreaded
PMS or
Run out of plugs in the middle of …
Nor worry about pregnancy
Or stains or wearing very
White
Or feel estranged from the Peter Principle.
For a new fierce self
Emerged
A Female self in a man’s world.
Adieu to estrogen
Bon Voyage. Good riddance.
No balms or pills to restore what was lost
For she had found a drive
Moving forward
To being older
A graying woman forthright though blonde
A rara avis* to herself.

For
Eunice would spread her plumage
A palette of feathers
Sans red
Burning brightly a kaleidoscope changing
Glorious and Necessary
Lustful and Powerful with possibilities
As ever and more
For as long as she had left to
Be.

* n., pl. ra·ra a·vis·es or ra·rae a·ves (râr’ē ā’vēz). A rare or unique person or thing.[Latin rāra avis : rāra, feminine of rārus, rare + avis, bird.]

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K O
wowOwow’s extraordinary subtext… powerful with possibilities… pwp ripe and rarified.
By K O on 06/26/2008 1:10 am
kermie b
On the train home tonight, 40 across on my crossword puzzle, I swear, was blank (4 letters) avis. All I could think of was some kind of bird. I know Latin legal terms, but I didn’t know this. Now I do. Haven’t had my period for five months now, and I think, “Is this it?” I have boxes of supplies; I am not ready for this. I haven’t told my boyfriend. This is not how I thought perimenopause would be, because I don’t feel any different; I don’t care what my age is. And, I have a birthday next month. I don’t judge other women. Each woman has a special beauty at every age. I am more nurturing to them than I am to myself. I know my office birthday present this year will be a cute little pair of binoculars. Maybe I can find the rara avis in myself. Sorry, this is really difficult. Anyone else have a story? I’d love to hear other women’s experiences with this.
By kermie b on 06/26/2008 3:00 am
rocky rocky
It was the time when smoking suddenly was no longer allowed inside the building and I was a chain smoker; it was the time when I lost my company and was trying to figure out what next; it was the time when my children moved out of my home and into their own independent lives; it was the time when undiagnosed Grave’s disease was causing excessive debilitation … Menopause? Hardly noticed at all.
By rocky rocky on 06/26/2008 9:28 am
phyllis Doyle Pepe
Rocky: I can see why–––whew! It must have been like a dot on the landscape. Graves? You?
By phyllis Doyle Pepe on 06/26/2008 10:06 am
rocky rocky
Phyllis: Yep. I hope you are not acquainted with it, too. It’s not much fun.
By rocky rocky on 06/26/2008 12:48 pm
phyllis Doyle Pepe
Ki b: You asked about menopause on the thread about “”What appliance would you be” and I replied. I told you what I had experienced and said that the women here would walk you through it if need be. We have so many caring people here and each one has had their own unique experience and would give you different perspectives. You sound really anxious about this–––could you talk about that? You told us about your uterine cancer–– getting through all that without a hysterectomy (see my poem on the breast cancer thread re: this) and am wondering if that experience colors the way you feel about menopause.
By phyllis Doyle Pepe on 06/26/2008 10:01 am
kermie b
I think it is because my parents died very young and I didn’t have a mother for the beginning, and clearly not for the end, of my periods. I learned everything from medical books at the library for both. I have a missing piece; I’m sure I’m not the only one. We actually had “what appliance would you be”? Good lord. My memory has been very bad (or I just shut that one out). Thank you for talking to me about this.
By kermie b on 06/26/2008 1:30 pm
Gianna Bracco
Hi ki b, Speaking from my own experience, you may not be quite done with periods just yet. For about 2 years, I went from never missing one since I was 10 yrs. old (except for pregnancy), to sporadic visits. Just when I thought I would never get one again, I did. And, I admit, I had a thought like “yes, I’m still a woman.” But that quickly passed. After a while, I forgot just how much of a pain it had always been. Recently I had to wear a pad to the gym (another story) and it all came back to me … feeling the darn thing moving around, wondering if this big lump was visible, etc. Everyone’s different, of course. But, for me, PMS was a much bigger problem than menopause has been. The only way I really noticed it was in my body. It seemed that my body was just this stranger that I had to get to know all over again. Nothing I used to do seemed to work anymore. It made me very aware of what I’m eating. If I eat something with lots of sodium, it shows the next day; bloating and puffiness. But once I got into the rhythm of the new me, it’s all good. I’m actually slimmer than I’ve been in years just because I have to really think about what I’m doing and eating. One thing you should be doing, if you aren’t already, is taking calcium w/vitamin D every day. I was appalled when I had my first bone density test ever and they told me I had, not osteoporosis, but the pre-condition. I admit, that did freak me out, but again, it got me working on myself more than I ever had. Rara avis ~~~ from your posts that I’ve read, I think you have already achieved this. Take it as a sign that all is well, and you are just exactly where you should be.
By Gianna Bracco on 06/26/2008 12:54 pm
kermie b
Thank you for your post. My extremely heavy periods and PMS are what caused the gyn to find uterine cancer. So, thinking about all that, I feel just exhausted, amazed at the energy it took for the operation and getting through those endless periods. All this talk has made me realize I need a new onco and gyn for checkups, and to get a blood test to find out for sure. Thank you again.
By kermie b on 06/26/2008 1:39 pm
Gianna Bracco
ki b, they also say you are not officially menopausal until you have gone one complete year without a period, so, you know, birth control is still in the picture!
By Gianna Bracco on 06/26/2008 1:46 pm
kermie b
Yes, I know. If it isn’t one thing, it’s another… .
By kermie b on 06/26/2008 1:54 pm
Kathrine Gluvna
ki b, a fantastic resource is “Our Bodies Our Selves Menopause” I don’t think I have the title right, but you can find it. There is a lot of information about menopause, plus a lot of stories. I love it.
By Kathrine Gluvna on 06/27/2008 12:12 pm
kermie b
Thank you all. Truly.
By kermie b on 06/29/2008 6:37 am
Bonnie Oliver
Sheila - I do like your style of writing. I remember asking my Mom when I turned about 40 about her menses and how old was she when she started menopause. She said she was in her mid 50s and just suddenly it stopped. No problems, no hot flashes - just another rite of passage. I was 49 when they found the lump in my breast. After surgery and radiation treatments, I started the drug Tamoxifen (to prevent the recurrences of cancer) which is proscribed for five years. The drug removes the estrogen from your body and suddenly I was in menopause. Hot flashes - oh yes. But not near as bad as other ladies I talked with. Mood swings - once in a while. My oncologist said I could take another drug to counter the effects but I said, absolutely not. Went out and bought a bunch of Chinese paper fans - and they work marvelously. However, I still have ‘flashes’ on occasion and my oncologist said I could have them for the rest of my life. I was not as fortunate as my mother in making this rite of passage or as Sheila wrote, to become “a rara avis to herself”. But I am there.
By Bonnie Oliver on 06/26/2008 3:39 am
Lena B
A beautiful tribute to the second half of the journey… the best half.
By Lena B on 06/26/2008 4:03 am