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Sheila Nevins | 08/01/2008 12:00 am

The Gloves

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A story of fear and trembling …
Do you have fears?
How do you overcome them?
Are you counterphobic?
(i.e., doing what scares you to prove you’re okay)

An interactive poem

 

 

 

 

The Gloves

Amelia E. Peterson was not a white-knuckle
Flier.
She was a white-knuckle person,
But
She wore gloves.
White gloves to cover her fears.

Never revealing her terror
She flew her plane to dangerous altitudes
And was known to all as
Fearless.
Navigator,
Adventurer and Aviator.
Peterson’s flip-flops in the air were known worldwide.
No bomber pilot would dare to try them.
Amelia bungee jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge.
Scuba dived deep into the oceans
Against
Divers’ rules
Sans oxygen.

Amelia E. rode a bronco bareback
Drove screechingly
At Indianapolis speed around
Dangerous curves.
Ticketed with bravado.

Tempting her fate in smaller ways
Her response to a mad cow alert …
Eat only beef.

During a tomato salmonella scare
Amelia would gorge only on
Tomatoes
Affronting the outbreak with her red
Flair.

She ate raw fish in
Diners
Steak tartar
At Greasy Spoons.

Yes Amelia went far out in life’s waters
Tempting sharks
Detesting Calm seas or —

This was how she appeared
To Others.

Yet with her white gloves off
Unseen to the world
Her heart raced at
Ambulance sirens
Fire bells
Tales of Tsunamis, Terrorists
And Nuclear Fallout.
Death scared her
Nightly and bedcovers
Would tremble but no one would see.

Single, Amelia E. Peterson
Dated only married men.
She never asked for commitment
Loving a bullfight,
But banned from the ring
Amelia dressed as a toreador on Cinco de Mayo
So she lived thus until …

On a certain day
In a certain year
The sky fell, as
Chicken Little had predicted.
The volcano and earthquake
Came upon the earth
Together.
The tides rose; the rains came
The levees broke
The world would
End.

‘Cept for
Amelia E. Peterson who survived as
Miracle Matter.
Naked yet with white gloves she stood
Out of the bubbling molten when
Suddenly emerging a man.
Audaciously, Amelia asked,
(Pointing her gloved finger at him)
"Who art thou?"
"Atom-Adam," he replied. 
"Spell that," she ordered
And he did,
"A-T-O-M  A-D-A-M"

And he stretched out his hands saying
"The world has fallen into the Sea"
"Because it did,"
She said, "because I knew all along."
She said, " because I am not afraid."
And he asked who she was? Did she have a name?
Brazenly she replied,
"Amelia E. Peterson."

"Take off your white gloves, Amelia E." he said.
"No," she said emphatically.
"Take off your gloves," he said again, "I want to feel you."
She did, slowly trusting him
Finger by finger
Placing her trembling hands in
His lava hands
She was petrified.
"Amelia E. Peterson," he said.
Holding her
Warming her with his fire,
"You are beautiful and brave,
Amelia E.,
We are all that is left."

"What does the E. stand for," he asked of Amelia E. Peterson.
"It is for Eve,
But I never use it."

And they held hands peacefully
And watched this world end
Together.

88 Reader Comments (so far…) Sign In or Register to comment

kermie b
Hi neighbor, Bonnie. We Queens gals are tough, eh? Thank you for your comments. I would like to hug you.
By kermie b on 08/01/2008 2:23 am
Bonnie Oliver
ki b - I don’t know about Queens but I think you are just fine. I have no idea who is gay or not at this sight. Sometimes someone will drop a hint. Mugsy has been pretty outspoken and is on alert for homophobic remarks. Chef Zee and I once had a misunderstanding but I think that was probably due to me and the wording used in my comment. I like to think of most women as sisters even if we have different sexual and companionship needs. Those chromosomes don’t lie; we are what we are and I have to think that God made us the way we are…whatever way that might be.
By Bonnie Oliver on 08/01/2008 2:46 am
kermie b
Bonnie, I meant the borough of Queens. I’m not gay. Aren’t you the one who lives in Forest Hills?
By kermie b on 08/01/2008 1:52 pm
Bonnie Oliver
Ki b - See, there I go. I really do not know who is gay at this website but ever since I accidentally hurt Chef Zee’s feelings, I am trying not to be so unaware….and then when you wrote Queens I thought ….well, it doesn’t matter, does it. I apologize and I apologize to any of the gay readers who might think I was stupid or whatever. No, Ki b, I live in Northern California in a town called El Cerrito which is a neighboring town of Berkeley. I do occassionally confuse some of the participants here at wOw - but this mistake was me just trying to be too careful. I hope you are laughing with me.
By Bonnie Oliver on 08/01/2008 2:47 pm
kermie b
Yes, Bonnie, I was definitely laughing WITH you. You, I know, would never deliberately hurt someone’s feelings. (Besides, a Queen is a guy who is gay, so I thought that was funny.) Now, I am wondering who it was who lives in Forest Hills? I am so bad at this.
By kermie b on 08/01/2008 2:57 pm
kermie b
The thing is—I was thinking about this during my interminable evening at work—this website clearly goes to many countries. That thought alone is daunting. We aren’t teenagers, and thank goodness, have you seen those sites? That is why we come HERE. But with so many people, with so much life experience, we are bound to hurt someone without knowing it—the odds alone… . My point is, if we tiptoe around every person’s feelings then we censor ourselves. Censorship is bad for blood pressure. So, sooner or later, we have to step on toes to get to the brains … or something more profound than I can come up with at this hour.
By kermie b on 08/02/2008 2:01 am
Frannie Em
Joan, Your post is very important, because for those suffering with debilitating anxiety and fear, you demonstrate the methods you use to get out of it. When I recognized that what I feared was death, and that the fear was causing me to die inside everyday, I could easily see that it was a dead end street. It took more for me than to just get busy, I had been busy for a long time, like Kelly Kelly, I had to consciously work my way, and educate my mind out of itself about fear. It seemed like my inner resources had dried up. I had to deal with my relationship with myself, and my higher power and decide was I going to surrender to fear or my higher power. It was a lesson for my own inner development. I had to stop the fear and not let it in the door or my mind. I don’t know how else to put it. It was like drawing a line in the sand. Sorry, you cannot cross. I remembered that great scene the first Lord of the Rings. They are down in the caves and tunnels, hiding from the orcs. They have to escape and they are running and climbing and Gandalf has them keep going and he stays back and everyone is afraid for him because a horrific fear spewing creature comes up out of the depths, but he turns and faces it, raises his arms and shouts something to the effect of “YOU SHALL NOT PASS”. Sometimes, it took that kind of effort for me.
By Frannie Em on 07/31/2008 1:29 pm
joan larsen
Frannie Em — Another brilliant thinker and woman — always obvious in your writings. Each of us obviously has our own thinking, our own ways that we come to our senses with — and yours is unique and individual as you are. For some it is trial and error. Others find the key to the world that lies without in one try. The trick is - ah ha - is not just finding the key but turning that key in the door in your mind, in your house perhaps, that is holding you back. We all can have myriad excuses for not doing things. How true that can be. I think of Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, Dorothy living in isolation in Kansas and then the world she could never dream of before opened out to her. For me, each day I think of it as I am out my TRAPdoor and out into the world. I am on the YELLOW BRICK ROAD. I don’t know where it leads — and that is the fun of it. What IS around the next corner? I won’t know until I am out there, will I? And it sure is better than lying on my sofa watching inane things of TV and realizing another day has passed without your growing and flourishing in your own life. You almost seem half dead doing that. Frankly, we are meant for more than an ordinary life. Well, aren’t we? And it is up to ourselves to see that it isn’t. The first step normally leads to another path, perhaps an offshoot of the yellow brick road, leading to a direction that makes a right turn change in a so-so life. YOU SHALL NOT PASS is an excellent beginning. The road is there for each of us. Don’t spend too much time testing the waters — it is time to move forward and never, never stop. If it works for me, it works for any of you smart women out there. Promise!!!
By joan larsen on 07/31/2008 2:09 pm
HA BIBI
Joan, That was so beautifully said. There’s an old saying “It’s not how often we get on something but rather how quickly we get off of it” meaning things that are unpleasant in life will invariably happen to us at some point and it all comes down to how we respond/react to it. I loved the phrase you stated…”and why should I be singled out for the perfect life”? Life as we all imagine it to be is just that, a wonderful fantasy but not always the reality. So we all just plug along in our attempts to strive for the best life we can. And indeed a good trade off. :)
By HA BIBI on 08/01/2008 8:39 am
kermie b
Elaine, I agree with you on this topic. May I call a truce?
By kermie b on 08/01/2008 3:12 pm
HA BIBI
Most definately!…. Ki b I have the utmost respect for you asking. It’s ok if we don’t always agree. All I ever wanted was for all of us to be kind to each other. And with this I apologize on my end. I love what Josie said “Peace on tap for all” Thank you Ki b, It’s much apreciated. :)
By HA BIBI on 08/01/2008 4:43 pm
doll lady
Sheila…I found this a profoundly moving, work of art. I found myself holding my breath. White gloves….yes, I wear them, but I feel mine are wrapped around my heart. Peace and Goodwill as I extend the hand of friendship….doll
By doll lady on 07/31/2008 8:13 am
J B
Beautiful piece. Yes, I have fears…spiders…snakes…flying…don’t like to be in the dark and have slept with a night light my entire life. Of course the built in Mother fears for my children’s safety. I do scuba dive and kayak…but I would never try mountain climbing or jump out of a perfectly good airplane!
By J B on 07/31/2008 8:14 am
a. m.
i think the doll lady got it right - my white gloves are wrapped around my heart so tightly, i don’t think i could keep my balance if they were removed it’s funny to me - i’ve had panic/anxiety attacks at the weirdest times - when there was nothing to fear, when i should have felt snug & secure. and, yet, when my physical safety has been threatened, i go on automatic pilot. calm, collected, trying to figure a safe way out of danger. i take more risks with my physical well being now that my parents & siblings have passed on. i never wanted to be a burden or have them worry about me. i cannot imagine mountain climbing or anything dangerous if i knew it meant that someone i loved would have to pick up my pieces. i think it is our hearts that we shield from harm - not our bodies.
By a. m. on 07/31/2008 8:29 am
Chrome Toe
I know about fear. Not really fear of “things” but ever worse… fear for no visible reason. About a decade ago I overcame an anxiety disorder that had become debilitating. I wrote about this somewhere on another thread. I had what is known as “generalized anxiety”. Couldn’t put my finger on any one thing but I was so anxious I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat, could barely leave my house. I thought at one point i’d end up in the psych ward. Which is a common thought for people with anxiety disorder. I overcame it with the help of a therapist and a book called “the feel good handbook” by Dr. David Burns. the therapist was nice but the book saved my life. I’ve probably given it to a hundred people since then. He has a new book out just titled “panic” I think. I looked at it the other day and it’s fabulous. Thankfully I don’t need it anymore. I internalized the lessons I needed to and almost never have real panic attacks or generalized fear anymore. I didn’t ever take any medications. Mostly because in the throws of the worst of my anxiety I was to afraid to take meds. How ironic is that. If I even had a HINT of that kind of anxiety again I’d take some meds. But in those days by the time I realized what was happening I was so in the middle of it that I couldn’t take any meds. Probably a blessing in disguise because I worked my ass off to change my thinking. The only true and long term cure for anxiety or depression. Changing your thinking. Now I have the skills to stop it before it happens.
By Chrome Toe on 07/31/2008 9:36 am