Sheila Nevins | 08/12/2009 11:00 pm
Heart-Break, by Sheila Nevins
Can you die of a broken heart?
Did you ever think you would?
Is the hurt forever or does it heal?
Did you ever think you would?
Is the hurt forever or does it heal?

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One day they’ll have a machine that shows a broken heart – an EKG of love gone astray. The printout will show the tear and the doctor will say to the man or woman on the examining table, "Ah, I see your heart was broken at about 17 or 18 years of age." And you’ll say simply, "Yes."
Last weekend I ran into a kid I knew slightly from around town – sweet faced and earnest. We seemed to arrive at the local Starbucks at the same time, many times. I asked him about his beautiful girlfriend. She was the kind of local girl who has movie-star looks without even trying. I used to see him with her, staring over their frappé straws looking deeply into each other’s eyes. Sweet love. Young love. Evoking in me a kind of aching memory for never-again.
"Where’s your girlfriend?" I asked. "Oh," he said, "Britney? We don’t go out anymore." "Ouch" I said, "Why not?" (The inevitable line at Starbucks was scarcely moving.) "Well," he answered, "she went off to college and fell for some guy the first week." "How awful," I said, "I’m so sorry." "Yeah," he replied, "She dumped me!" (He ordered a venti-caramel-mocha-latte.) I had figured these two for the inevitable small-town dance from high-school sweethearts to side-by-side gravesites. "Howdya find out?" I asked the bereaved man-boy. "Her girlfriend." "You mean she never told you herself?" (I ordered a decaf-misto with skim milk). "Nope she never told me." "How long were you together?" "From soph year to graduation – two and a half years." "Did you try to call her and get her to explain?" "I tried," he said, "but she never answered my calls. She even returned the heart necklace and the belt buckle. No note. Nothing." "That happened to me once," I said. "You get over it?" he asked. "Sure." I lied, "It takes a while."
You see, this is what I knew. I knew this boy would never ever get over this girl. Never, ever. Years later, marriage, kids, job travails and success, family losses and triumphs, because a certain strain of music or a starlit night, or a waft of a familiar aroma – these uninvited moments would bring back the pain of his broken heart so it would never heal. Unrequited love forever causes a nick in whatever pretend-armor you wear. A broken heart can pierce the strongest of protective devices.
Poor kid, I thought. He started to pay at the pick-up counter. I said, "Hey let me pay for your venti-caramel-mocha-latte. "No thanks," he smiled sadly."Please," I said, "It’s the least I can do." He nodded "no" sweetly, paying himself for this overpriced variation on a coffee theme. Yes, Science will one day discover this permanent now-invisible scar. They’ll see it on some new kind of machine and point it out to the patient. It will be an incidental finding.
Last weekend I ran into a kid I knew slightly from around town – sweet faced and earnest. We seemed to arrive at the local Starbucks at the same time, many times. I asked him about his beautiful girlfriend. She was the kind of local girl who has movie-star looks without even trying. I used to see him with her, staring over their frappé straws looking deeply into each other’s eyes. Sweet love. Young love. Evoking in me a kind of aching memory for never-again.
"Where’s your girlfriend?" I asked. "Oh," he said, "Britney? We don’t go out anymore." "Ouch" I said, "Why not?" (The inevitable line at Starbucks was scarcely moving.) "Well," he answered, "she went off to college and fell for some guy the first week." "How awful," I said, "I’m so sorry." "Yeah," he replied, "She dumped me!" (He ordered a venti-caramel-mocha-latte.) I had figured these two for the inevitable small-town dance from high-school sweethearts to side-by-side gravesites. "Howdya find out?" I asked the bereaved man-boy. "Her girlfriend." "You mean she never told you herself?" (I ordered a decaf-misto with skim milk). "Nope she never told me." "How long were you together?" "From soph year to graduation – two and a half years." "Did you try to call her and get her to explain?" "I tried," he said, "but she never answered my calls. She even returned the heart necklace and the belt buckle. No note. Nothing." "That happened to me once," I said. "You get over it?" he asked. "Sure." I lied, "It takes a while."
You see, this is what I knew. I knew this boy would never ever get over this girl. Never, ever. Years later, marriage, kids, job travails and success, family losses and triumphs, because a certain strain of music or a starlit night, or a waft of a familiar aroma – these uninvited moments would bring back the pain of his broken heart so it would never heal. Unrequited love forever causes a nick in whatever pretend-armor you wear. A broken heart can pierce the strongest of protective devices.
Poor kid, I thought. He started to pay at the pick-up counter. I said, "Hey let me pay for your venti-caramel-mocha-latte. "No thanks," he smiled sadly."Please," I said, "It’s the least I can do." He nodded "no" sweetly, paying himself for this overpriced variation on a coffee theme. Yes, Science will one day discover this permanent now-invisible scar. They’ll see it on some new kind of machine and point it out to the patient. It will be an incidental finding.
























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I think it is so unfair to always blame parents for all the problems of their children.
Yes, Parents are generally the biggest influence but remember they have many others who either lead them down the good and bad paths….teachers, friends, neighbors even the grocer down the street. Everyone they have experiences with have a great influence….Parents can not be blamed for the total outcome.
I’ve said many times………I can and have controlled what my children did and do in my Home……I hope what I’ve taught them have been a good guide when they are out on their own. I have no control over them out in the Big Old World.
They are individuals and make their own choices regardless of our teachings.
I’ve had more than I care to count (of broken hearts) related to my children but not caused by them.
S A,
I never cared for that quote from Jacqueline Kennedy - people make choices irregardless of parents/family upbringing. Your children are not your only life work. Yes, it is heartbreaking to lose someone to suicide.
Broken Heart Syndrome
Broken Heart Syndrome is a reality. It is a medical condition. The good news is you can recovery!….I suspect many can testify to having recovered.
Real love cannot be dismissed as though it never existed. It takes time to heal. It’s like experiencing a death. It takes time to go through the stages (pain, questions, anger, grief and acceptance etc.)
Diving into another relationship is not the answer nor is it healthy. Inorder to heal you must deal with the issues at hand. Otherwise, you take baggage (unresolved issues) into the next relationship.
I sincerely hope it’s not something that you drag through your entire life like some rotting appendage if it was an abusive relationship. Did you experience heartbreak as a result of a death? There are many reasons.
www.hopkinmedicine.org/Press_release2005/02_10_5html
www.mayoclinic.com/health/broken-heart-syndrome/HB0008
Psychologists and psychiatrists state that it takes atleast a year to recover from a broken love relationship.
It’s hoped that everyone finds the strength, courage and will to embrace the rest of life’s journey full of hope, love, grace and expectation.
From a Journal Entry–1997
Passing the old griefs on the staircase, she held the railing tightly as though at any moment she could become unbalanced falling forever into a place where the air was too thick to breathe. Sometimes, she thought, just sometimes, there are moments like this that tear the heart so terribly it can never really heal properly and so for the rest of one’s life there is this open sore in the heart, hidden, of course, tucked away and safe.
"Time has too much credit…it is not a great healer. It is an indifferent & perfunctory one. Sometimes it does not heal at all."
Ivy Compton Burnett
Grief melts away
Like snow in May,
As if there were no such thing.
George Herbert
My heart is sore pained within me: and the terrors of death are fallen upon me. Fearfulness & trembling are come upon me, & horror hath overwhelmed me.
And I said, oh, that I had the wings like a dove! for then would I fly away, and be at rest.
Psalms: 55
I think you can die of a broken heart because of all the physiological doings in your body as you suffer heart break. Just the stress is bad for your health so imagine how many other things occur and put a strain on your system.
A broken heart hurts like hell and takes time to heal, from experience. I think the optimal point is how well we recover from it contributes to our health.
Love your article. So true. My son shot hiself in the head, due to broken heart.
There is a great book I am reading "Free to Love,Free to Heal" by David Simon,MD
I remember her just turning gray, something I had not seen before happen. Another occured when my step-dad died, and the last we know of when her mother died. She died herself just after the new year in 2004, one minute she was talking and then unresponsive, spent three days on life support and then we let her go. A heart attack would be scarey enough with the pain, and really the silent killer without the pain.
Thank you.