Makes me think of the days when you just want to daydream the day away… … .

Right now very worried my husband is out of work and I am working my website night and day. Sleep is an option that I can’t afford right now. That and when you are worried sleep for me doesn’t come easy. But I have been blessed to have found some great help in learning to work my website, promoting, technical, you name it. makes a person feel good to know that there are still some very caring and giving people around.

And you just keep being in fashion. I truly believe that fashion should be what makes us feel good about ourselfs. Because if you aren’t happy at the end of the day what difference does the price tag make.

My hats off to Jamie for not being afraid to be true to herself. There are so many woman that today I don’t think I would reconize ( to much work) if I can’t look in the mirror and see me then what is the point.

I think so because we just get it, and lets face it you can’t expect something from the ones who are just clueless. Really I think we do expect more because we give more… . . Di

I also never wanted to bring on trouble but I felt as I reached a certain age that I wanted to have at least a medical history. I also didn’t want to have the door shut in my face. Being given away was at times difficult enought but to be turned away would be too much. I did find my birth mother and after several great phone calls in the same day I was gladd I had found her the only strange moment was when she said I love you, and I just couldn’t say it back, I said to her I understand how you can say that to me it is what I feel for my kids also, but I can’t say that to you right now. She said she understood and the call was over. I in the next few weeks wrote her sent pictures of my kids her grandkids and got no response. several more calls just to be told she wasn’t there by my half brother. And then another letter. Still no response. She had done what I was afraid. turning her back on me again. I had even told her that was a fear of mine and she assured me that wouldn’t happen. I went though some very tough times as of this I had learned in the calls that I was one of five children she gave birth to, but the only one she gave away. I had always knew the reasons for my adoption but the heart can’t help but hurt. It has been over 14 yrs since that call and I had one more child and have 3 grandchildren that she knows nothing about. I only wish that when she found out I was looking for her she would never have made that first call.

My family and the desire to care for them and at the same time make them proud of me and the choices I make in life. I like most moms want to care for my family in many ways… …Di