Judy, I hear you.  lol   One of my BFF went to Catholic school her entire life and she use to sneak cloths in her shoe bag so she could dress it up, Nuns would go nuts on her., lol

My Mom’s second husband was Irish Catholic Cop who was not a nice person to say the least so we never ever went against his wish’s even when we got to school out of fear he’d find out.

My Dad was cool, he took me out and bought me my first pair of Bastad Clogs, hip huggers and halter tops.  Nothing too bold but just enough that I fit in.  I went to live with him one month before exams in my senior yr after my stepfather beat the crap out of me and I had nothing, nothing at all.  The stepfather cut up my cloths, took a razor blade to all my albums I work so hard to buy and even destroyed my senior picture.

But my dad was the best, he helped me find my self esteem again, and helped me be the woman I am now.  Now I’m crying, I really miss him, and I really really hate that my mother kept us from having a relationship my enitre childhood.

 Sorry off track.  I’m 5ft 7in and always wore long because I like to fold up the bottom of my jeans and now I wear cotton for comfort.  I had three surgery’s via the stomach so my tummy is no longer flat like in the olden days, lol.

I learned to sew to make cloths fit better and then I got the hang of it and started making all my kids cloths until they went to school, but I still made their pj’s. 

Funny how life’s lesson help us learn how to do others to improve our lives.

I agree with A mrson, if we have to have digital TV’s, why can’t they find a solution to the black box.  We can transmit pictures through our cell phones, and music, why can’t they develop a way so all the information from the cockpit is sent back to it’s place of origin, or place of arrival. 

The ocean hardly ever gives up it’s secrets.

The girl innocent or guilty is not up to us to say.  If she did it she deserves what ever she gets, if she didn’t , she should be let free.  I don’t trust the legal system all that much here let alone over seas..  Seen too many people get away with stuff and too many get convicted when innocent.  Can we say O J.

Being on trial in a foriegn country has got to be really scary for an American, they don’t get the same treatment over there that they do get here.

Here:  INNOCENT UNTIL PROVEN GUILTY

there: ALL UP TO THE POLICE/JUDGES

I have finished my Radiation treatment for Colon Cancer. Now I’m going to be working on packing and moving to TN in July.  Life is good, I’m still here. 

Here in the ti-area in NC is very sad this wkend.  One of the big employees here (food packing company) had a major explosion, some have died, some are very injured and all are in shock.  300 people were working at the time of the blast, they still don’t know what caused it.  The only good thing is the company is going to continue paying the employees (according to the local tv stations), so I’m off to take what I can to help out. 

The Good News is that the community surrounding this area (Garner, NC) have pulled together to help out the families of those hurt and those who have left us. 

This country does love to come to the rescue when it’s needed.  Makes me proud to be an American. :)

Ms. Wells, I have been rereading various novels.  Dan Browns have peeked my interest again wiht the release of Deamons and Angels.  I have always been a Novel reader myself.  If anyone has any good suggestions I’m open to them. :)

Judy, that book made me to never want a boyfriend, it scared me so.  We were in the second or third week of reading it when the movie came out.  Liza was great.  But before we could finish the book in class it was banned thanks to the Catholic Church.  They couldn’t take the books from us because we had to buy them but our parents were made aware that the book had been banned and then our parents took the book,  I’d already finished it and seen the movies so It was no big deal for me but the other kids couldn’t understand how the Church could influence the city to ban the book.  We were in public school. 

Silly question and off the topic, but do you remember when girls were allowed to start wearing jeans/pants in school. In Buffalo it was 1972, spring semister, for christmas I got my first pair of jeans, I was 16 and a Junior in hight school. I had no idea what to wear with them after wearing dress’s and skirts for 11 years.  lol

Danielle,  Never let another person put you down or keep you down.  We have to be strong for US, we have to take care of ourselves for sake of those who depend on US.  I love my children and would give them all I have to make their lives easier, but they don’t need me to do that.  They both have a strong sense of Self, and Survival.  When I’m needed they let me know and vise versa, Everything I am and do has been for my Children. I would lie down tomorrow and die if it would mean saving their lives. But that is the only way I’d go out before I’m ready.  Keep you eyes to the opened, shoulders square and feet firm on the ground, and then nothing or no one can knock you down.  God Speed :)

Judy I don’t know if you read any of my other posting but my life has been anything but hard.  But I endured and carried on, when I was old enough to escape the abuse I got out of dodge and joined the Navy.  I love the Navy, and being a female in the Navy was really cool.

When you’d go home in your uniform with your rank on your sleeve, you let them all know by the way you held your head up and shoulders back with pride that they DID NOT KEEP YOU DOWN. 

But being in the Navy had it’s consequences, my frist cancer was due to something I was either exposed to or something, and that was 26 yrs ago.  I’ve had three other kinds since then. But the skin cancer I have to blame on my Mother, she use to put baby oil on us and send us out to play, can we say FRY.

The other cancers and the Irretable Bowl have been linked to my first cancer.  My kids didin’t even know what was going on, only that I had to go to Bethisda Naval hospital for an appointment.  It wasn’t until they were in their teens that two and two started to add up for them. 

I refused to let them know what was going on and putting the burden of worry on their young shoulders.  I let them be kids, I did what was needed and carried on

My X@@@@@husband , did nothing to help, in 21 yrs of marriage I think he cut the grass three times if I was lucky and he never sholved snow.  He did help cut down the trees in the back yard because he didn’t want me playing with HIS toys.

I truely believe the stuggles of my childhood is what made me who I am, I learned to deal with the abuse, rape, abandonment, and all the other crap and it gave me a goal, to not be what the adults of my childhood were. Once I found out I was pregnant with my beautiful daught I stopped drinking, she is now 27, I have had a drink now and again, but I’m not an acholoic like the adults of my childhood.  My mother took a lot of percribed meds, and I honestly don’t remember her working after I turned 13, she went on welfare, turned out her second husband (my abuser) was married to another woman on the other side of twon, and he was a cop.  Life’s not been easy but I’ve learned from what’s happened, what I’ve seen, and gone through and I’m determined not to let it get to me.

Thank you Candice for some new books to look for.  I ususally only read Christian Fiction, but before that I read a lot of Dean Koontz.  But I couldn’t take any more Steven King type books, they were so out there. I’ve read a lot of Bio’s, just finished Kate Hepburn’s and it was good.  Enjoy your summer books, a cool drink a breeze sunset and a good book is the way to end any summer evening. :)

I agree Candice, abuse and power are like peanutbutter and jelly, they go together.

Liza Minnelli was in a movie in the 70’s called "Tell me that you love me Judy Moon", we had to read the book in high school, when the church got a hold of the book they had it banned in Buffalo, NY schools. The movie/book is about a woman and how she overcame having acid poured on her.  To this day I have not been able to find a copy of the book or movie.  It had a clear message in it on how to avoid and get away from some you know or expect may to you harm.  I’ve neve been to a NY play, but I’ve seen a lot of movies, and Ms. Minnelli has had a lot of hard earn success.  It couldn’t have been easy trying to make your way with your mother being Judy Garland.  I say "You Go Girl", you deserve all the awards they out there.

Judy, there is nothing in this world to make me want to leave yet.  My goal is to be a Grandmother and with the Grace of God a GreatGrandmother.  I remember when my Grandmother held my children for the first time, the look and pride on her face warmed me all over.  She was a good Grandmother and set a good example for me.  She passed on all the old family recipes and on holidays I make her pies, and cookies, and she made the best apple fritters ever.  Her mom my Grandgrandma was also awesome, she use to make me animal pancakes with home made syrup from the tree in her back yard.  I"ve had a lot of crap, but I’ve also had a lot of good.

Nothing at all is going to keep me from being a good Grandma to my Grandchildren.  That’s my next goal, but I can’t achive that with out the help of my children so when they read this they’ll know I really really want a grandbaby :)

Judy, Siasp, I am a 3/4 time cancer survivor.  First time I was pregnant with my son, they wanted me to abort at  5 months when they told me, I said no, I stayed in bed and had a beautiful healthy baby boy, he’s now 26.  They took all my plumbing, a few yrs later they found polups and yep it was back, I had the surgery and did the treatment and went on.  I’m not 30 yet at this time.  the polups kept coming back but because I had the will and drive to survive I did what was needed.  Skin cancer came with the gene’s, red hair, blue eyes and whiter then a kleenex.  Everytime some showed up I went to the dr.  Now breast cancer I was not prepared for at all.  Went every year for Mamogram, no history in my family, did the exams. My breast started leaking one day in 2004, the class instructor alerted me to it.  I went right over to the VA hospital and told my doctor, for FOUR MONTHS she refused to let me get a core biosopy like the Radiologist said I needed.  By the time I finally got the test and approval for a second oppinion it was spreading.  You have to have a refereal for a second opinion, I couldn’t afford to do it by myself.

So I get the test, it’s postitive, two days later I meet the doc’s and the next day I have the surgery, it was in the lymph system, lost all the nodes in the left arm, half the left breast (no one will help pay for reconstruction) and when through a double round of chemo and radiation.  I wanted to die 90% of the time.  I was alone, my kids lived over 600 miles away and couldn’t get off a lot of time to be with me, my mother was sick herself, my one sister would only come over if i’d pay her, giver her some of my pain meds, my brother never step foot into my place until the day I was leaving N Y, my older sister that’s a lost clause.  The ones that were there for me were my FRIENDS, Donna,Audrey, and Marty.

I moved to NC thinking life is going to get better, I’ll be okay now. The Taxol (chemo) caused the loss of feeling in both hands and feet, weakened my bones, I’m standing at Atlantic Beach and a wave is coming not a big, bad wave, just a wave, when it hit it broke the part of the tibea (can’t spell) under the knee.  

So over the yrs I developed IBS (Irretable Bowl Syndrome) which is just as bad as Chrones,  and then colon cancer again.  Today was my last treatment.  Radiation.

I am still alone, no kids here to help, no spouse, just me and my dogs Mac and Sassie and cat Angel, I can’t die,who would walk my dogs or rub Angel’s belly. 

not fighting is selfish and self centered.  it’s going to hurt, treatments suck, not fighting cancer is like going into the woods and putting a gun in your mouth and pulling the triger.  your decision to not fight affects your entire family and friends, it’s legal sucide, they can collect the insurance now.

I’m alone by choice, my decision to fight is a selfish one, I want to be a Grandmother and if I don’t fight I’ll never get to hold my Grandbabies.

So my advise for anyone out there, FIGHT, don’t let cancer be your rope, or gun  or drive off the cliff.  There’s too much to see and do and enjoy and to much love to share.  Cancer is a five letter word with an attachment.

 

S G   thank you, I spent 11 yrs plantng rose bushes, clearing the back yard, I loved to sit in the hamock and just read a good book. In 1995 I was in a really bad car accident, a women hit me at 45 rmp in the mall brarking area, she hit my car hard and after 3 or 4 operations I was able to go back to work, I couldn’t go to the amusment parks with the kids anymore because of the trauma to my spine so I’d spend all my time working onthe front yard,side, back, I put a lot of time, love and money into my home.  And to lose it to forclosure because of lying cheating husband was a double whamy.

but life goes on and you keep the good memories in the fore front of the brain and forget the bad.

Rest Well :)

Hate breeds hate.  When this country was founded by the nations overseas, it was to escape prejudice, forced religious behavors, you could have been a Minister, Prisioner, Capt. in the Military, they left for what ever reason they did.  They started this country to be free.  That is a joke. 

Today on the View they were talking about this, those women can really go at it.  Joy makes jokes when jokes are really not needed.  Barbara and Whoopi were talking about how during the election and before it race discrimination was a hot issue, but they also mentioned they only talked about racism in regrads to African Americans, Barbara made the point very graciously that no mention of how Jewish people are very much discriminated against in this country.   does anyone remember what nationally JESUS was, he was a JEW. 

 Not just African Americans were slaves, the Irish were slaves for years, they built the Erie Cananl.  The settlers took the land from the real Americans the Native Indians who had been here for centuries. 

We are not born with hate in our brain, or prejudice, it is something that is learned, or drilled into you by adults.  Children are a clean slate and they learn by example.

This man has hated Jewish people for a very long time, I think he knew his time was coming and he wanted to do what ever he wated to do before he died.  Not very Christian of me to say but I hope he dies from his wounds.  and I don’t think he’ll get past the pearly gates.