Having it all is a state of mind. When I was younger, I always worked for people, I was always in one rat race or the other. I hated it! And I never felt I had enough, but now I am in retirement, I live the way I already mentioned in “Different world, Different Woes”. I love it ! I love the way I lived ! I think as if I already have everything. Because it is all in the mind. Because I really feel contented. I do not need an around the world trip any more, because I already had it. I had beautiful romantic memories….. I had them all already. and I do not need to seek any more, because I have no desire to need new excitement to make me happy. Because right now, I am still healthy and I am happy. Wait until the old age catches up with me. I always had a wish that I wanted to die on the dance floor, because when I died that way, I did not even know it was my time! And that is the best way to go. Afterall, we all have to go someday, no matter I am filthy rich or poor with no money, I still have to die just like everybody else. meanwhile,as long as I FEEL I have it all. That is all what I am happy about. p.s. I heard that some welthy people were never happy because there was never ENOUGH for them! I pity those poor souls.—-dancewu(dot)net

Mugsy: These days, sometimes I could stay in my apartment for days, working on the dance books or doing drawings or designed my housing projects days and nights,( seems that I never had enough time), or writing to friends overseas, or surf the computer internet, or went out to a dance party, or just took a walk, or went to the book store or to the library to read…. I wrote down on my pad board next to my front door weeks ago that ” I lover it! I love the way I live!—-2008-3-20” What else do I want?! Most of my life working for other people, now I could do all the things I want to do for myself, go to sleep whenever I feel like to, or not to! Cook myself a meal, or wait for after I took a bath, or after I did the bench press…..What a life! I love it. I do not need to travel to anywhere to look for excitement, my happiness is within me.I have peace inside me, not outside somewhere. In fact,I am very contented this way as I said on my writing pad! Two days ago when I received an e-mail from my daughter that my grand daughter received straight A’s from school, which made my day till even now…..What else do I want in life?!——dancewu(dot)net

In my opinion, I still think Pavlova is the best ACTRESS in the Dying Swan. I have viewed most of the other versions by Galina Ulanova, Maya Pliselskaya, Natalia Makarova…. But the Queen of Ballet is the Queen of Ballet!—-dancewu(dot)net

I speak only for myself. Since I travelled around the world three months in my honey moon trip right after college in New york, all these years, whenever people tried to impress me with their trips here and there, I just felt nothing!—-dancewu(dot)net

In Youtube 5 months ago, I responded to the Dying Swan of Nina Ananiashvili as to Anna Pavlova, “….in order to perform a dying swan, firstly need the empathy and understanding of the state of mind and feel lacking of energy to go on. I do not see this in Nina. Sorry, she is an excellent technician but not as a good actress for a swan about to DIE in five minutes!” …… ” Please compare this (Nina) with Anna Pavlova’s Dying Swan”.—-dancewu(dot)net

It was very unfortunate to be a prisoner of anything. Luckily I had never been in any of those—-jails or prisoner of war camps whatever. Although I have been curious about movies by William Holden and Steve McQueen in prisoner of war camps…..Well, those are only movies. But being a prisoner of war in Vietnam for many years, John McCain was a very unlucky person to me. The anger he must still have inside hiding deep that people talked about so much must be overwhelming….I guessed. He probably needs the best psychiatrist to help him… I am very sorry to have known about his unlucky past. But the past is the past. What can he do about the possible damage that already occured to him? To run for the president???….The main question I have is this: Does this strongest country in the world run out of mentally possibly healthy and mentally possibly stable talents to run for president???? To have a former prisoner of war to be the next president? What if the possible mentally unstable former prisoner of war got so angry one day and pushed the button to start the nuclear war ??????? And where are my three grand children be?—-dancewu(dot)net

You look great! Do not listen to other people! You look[] strikingly beautiful! You remind me of my ex-girl friend who also has a beautiful facial bone structure, the ones that Bo Derek, Greta Garbo and my ex-girl friend have, with the hair UP to show off the beautiful bone structure, the hair should be UP!—- just the way you are! DO NOT CHANGE IT, PLEASE?—-dancewu(dot)net

If the Chairman of China endorsed the Queen of Hawaii in Beijing and gave her a gold medal just like Bush gave Dalai Lama one several months ago, and then the Queen took over the Palace ground in Hawaii several days ago and protested ( in the news). which side,( I doubted every much that you ever cared enough,) would you march in a protest? and why?——in reference to Tibet……. No! China would not DIVIDE AND CONQUER another nation! China has been a peaceful country on earth, never invaded another country like some of the countries did.( you are well informed which country did which invasion in what year, etc.)…..The Chinese people used to mind its own business only until China is provoked!—- Tibet is one of the chinese provinces just like Hawaii is one of the states of the U.S.A.——-Any objections???!!!—-dancewu(dot)net

Silin, how are you? I felt so vulnerable, fragile, and angry this time when Dalai Lama did what he did in March. All my life I never had any organized religion: I was born into a Buddhist family, went to Baptist and Catholic schools, and had dated several Jewish ladies. Until a few years ago, I began looking into Buddhism because I believed in not killing all my life, and Buddhism seemed to be preaching that belief. So I went to the book store to learn more what they were all about, and bought books and audio tapes of Dalai Lama home. Last year, My high school friend asked me,” How can you believe in a man as GOD?” ……. What ever happened recently in Tibet gave me a chance to know how human that Dalai Lama is! He is as human as any dictator in history could be! The emperor of Japan,who is also a religious and political leader….and all the selfish individuals, using the mass of people to acheive his own personal ambition. The fact that the more Dalai Lama denied that he had nothing to do with the riot would make him more of a hypocrite! Every one knows that he is the leader of the plot and he received an endorsement from the president of the U.S. with a gold medal several months ago….. I got so disgusted of Dalai Lama that I threw his books into the garbage can!—- I want to repeat this once more: TIBET AND TAIWAN ARE THE TWO PROVINCES OF CHINA! JUST AS CALIFORNIA AND HAWAII ARE THE TWO STATES OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA!—— dancewu(dot)net

All my life no one ever approved my Chinese or English writing. Thank you very much, Mugsy Peabody. I supposed as I got older, and learned more from life, I have improved. If some one would praise my drawing, I would not be surprised at all, because I had been so used to it ever since I was a child, that is why I became an architect. But writing? I could not even write a decent letter to my friends. —dancewu(dot)net

The U.S. is fighting Iraq today is like Hillary is fighting Obama through Rev. Wright; the U.S. used to fight Iran with the help from Iraq is just like Hillary Clinton needed the Black Votes in order to go to the White House in 1992.That was the beauty of Bill Clinton’s politics but not the combatant Hillary who dicided to fight all the time. And today Hillary is fighting the Blacks because the Blacks is no longer supporting the Clintons anymore—- I am not voting this November. Therefore I could use my cool eyes to see all the dirty politics going on with amazement!—- dancewu(dot)net

As I was reading some of the founding mothers writing, all of a sudden, I had a thought that if all the political leaders of the world, if each one would write about oneself once a week. Would that help ? ——————-dancewu(dot)net

Mugsy Peabody—- Remember that I said about Meryl Streep and Greta Garbo in the post of “Streep last night” that I believed once someone was beautiful, to me, would be beautiful even at old age. I really believed in that. Because there were beauty deep into that person, into ones heart, would be forever. Remember Frank Sinatra’s “Young At Heart”? First time I heard of it in 1955 was in the starry evening, next to an outdoor Ballroom where lights glittered from below the colorful glass blocks dance floor, with the live band playing that song, just four of us boys, close friends for six years in the same school, on the sandy beach in Repulse Bay, Hong Kong. as the palm trees overhead moving slowly from the summer wind…. By the way, I just finished a painting of that very scene last week with the string light reflections from the distant boats near the island not far away. Somewhat like William holden and Jennifer Jones in the movie,” Love Is a Many Splendid Thing”. I was eighteen then, just graduated from high school. But that song lasted the rest of my life. many times when I felt blue about something, just thought of that to be young at heart again, and then I would be happy all over again, this time was from my heart. That was a genuine feeling!—- if you are secured within, even you are no longer 23, nobody ever could be 23 forever, but if you still feel you are as beautiful as when you were 23, you will smile all over again, and lift up your chin and walk the last 30 years with courage…..dancewu(dot)net

I think I have finally found myself as the time progresses! I’ve never read so many books in my life as I have recently. I have done many things I always loved to do all my life. The only reglect is that I did all these without a woman of my love, or perhaps there are some people do not deserve another person in their lives, and I am one of them. Since I already have a professionally successful daughter,I guessed I just have to accept that I am a loner, and I am lonely very often. I found myself more resilient and more rigid on many things. As a first-born child in the family, I certainly did not miss those days I was growing up with a first-born, domineering mother, then sub-conciously married to another first-born, domineering wife for 21 years. Now I am free!!! I learned a lot in life in many different ways. By going to the Singles functions, by reading in book stores, libraries, and exchange ideas with friends in dance parties. Amazing as it sounds, I found myself becoming out spoken lately—- actually it is one of my first-born traits that I had been deprived most of my life. Politically, personally, sexually, my taste in music, art, architecture, dances….. I have formed my ideas almost on everything which in the past I had been keeping it all to myself. I had been warned several times that I should not let myself known as the owner of the opinions. But my answer to that was I am an old man of 71 already, I have nothing to loose, might as well to live the rest of life I always wanted to,——As a result, I have been living a fuller life! Because I became more of being myself! Here I am reminded of one interview of Liz Smith with Charlie Rose, talking about speaking one’s own mind, and worried about getting fired or not?!—-dancewu(dot)net